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I am not a Buddhist
I'm neither a regular practitioner nor an earnest follower. Whether it's a spiritual belief or an empirical action, I don't practise or follow properly any of them. I take this habit of mine as an inexcusable mistake. Some people make mistakes unknowingly while some deliberately make mistakes with some sly intentions or simply because of their natural habit. And I do not belong to the first category in maximum cases. Nevertheless, ignorance is the common attribute between those blundering knowingly and those doing it unknowingly. You might think that those who make mistakes deliberately are not to be called ignorant. But this isn't the way I think. I am told by the elders what I must do and what not. Besides, I have read few books on religion, spiritualism, morality and ethical conducts. I have learned a lot from them. Yet, I do mistakes. And I know this is my ignorance. I lack knowledge on practical experiment. I know I shouldn't do but I lack the knowledge on how I should stop myself from doing. And above all, I'm ignorant of the ecstasy attained after the accomplishment of virtuous deeds and the irresistible suffering brought by the evil actions. However, the thing I want to say is that I have ignorantly remained a bad practitioner as well as an insincere follower.

Laziness has been a good friend of mine. It, unlike other friends of mine, gives me company 365 days a year. Since my childhood,Robe De Mariee pas cher, I have been buying books, books and books. The number will exceed 200, if I count them. But the number of books I have read completely is not more than 50. Besides, it's rare that I actively work at home. Cooking, cleaning, washing etc are the duties of my mother and sisters. For me, they are occasional tasks. But I do wash my own clothes when they are too dirty to wear. I waste too much of my time. I spend a lot of time idling. A couple of hours a day is spent in thinking what to do. Watching television with no purpose is a usual way to pass idle time. Idle chatter helps me forget tensions and even my responsibilities. Yet,Robe De Mariage 2012, there is one thing that I do with no laziness. That is painting. Until the painting is over, I continue to paint with non-stop concentration. But I recognise this as indulgence rather than deligence. I wouldn't continue painting more than a few minutes if painting was a boring and tiring job for me.

I'm not a Buddhist. But why would you be bothered about it? You didn't ask me who I am Did you? But giving a long, elaborate answer to a question not being asked is not my intention at all. However, I can expect for two possibilities - either you have understood my intention effortlessly or you are being disappointed to find no gist in this foolish writing. If you belong to the latter one, I would feel fortunate to share with you the gist of this unnecessarily long description of my own character. My intention is to express my personal view that we must not judge a religion or any doctrine just by observing the activities of conventionally declared followers, without studying the principles at all. If you are non-Buddhist but have some friends from Buddhist community, and if you find them eating too much of meat everyday, entertaining themselves every time, talking in abusive language and not caring at all for families, you will most probably be thinking that Buddhist people are too careless and indifferent and that you are lucky to be born in a non-Buddhist family. You might then have no faith in Buddhism. This kind of tendency is universally present. I can bring no revolution to change it overnight just by filling few pages with monotonously repeating words. But I can hope at least you, after reading it, will keep yourself conscious before instilling any stereotype in yourself about any religion, philosophy, theory and culture.

I don't think I'm generous. Generous people give away their precious things to others with no regret. A generous person doesn't think how rich or poor s/he is, but gives away the bigger portion of his/her possession to the needy ones. And this attribute is among those I do not possess. There are some physical things as well as a great degree of spiritual support I can give to my friends and society. But so far, I feel, I haven't sacrificed a tiny portion of my possessions. Sacrificing one's precious property with no wistful remorse is a real act of generosity. And as far as my experience is concerned, whatever I have given to my family and friends are of my little value, and a trifling hope of reward exists somewhere in the mind while I give things to them. Though I'm on the way to practise generosity, I'm not genuinely a generous fellow. Instead,Robe De Mariage 2012, I am gifted with so many generous people who really care about me.

None of the above mentioned traits of mine seems to be one of the significant features of a Buddhist, when I observe myself critically and logically. Telling lie, deceiving, indulging in idle activities, strong desire for material possessions and ignoring the facts are the traits a Buddhist must not possess, and I own them in abundance. I read Buddha's words and then observe myself after which I find myself miles away from a real Buddhist Buddha describes about. I have to say I'm a Buddhist when I'm asked about my religion. But it's just to avoid lengthy discussion that may unnecessarily take a long time and a tiresome effort. I cannot foretell which path I'll choose in my future, but till the moment I'm writing a few hundreds of words that you are reading, I'm not a Buddhist - I must say it with great regret.

If you ask me what religion I belong to, I will answer "I'm a Buddhist". This is an instant answer. I don't need to think even for a second to give this simple answer. My forefathers - though I haven't seen them - had learned and practised the prayers, rituals and philosophies of Buddhist tradition as I have come to know from my father, uncles and other relatives. Even till now, we - my whole family - worship the deities and spiritual masters belonging to Buddhism - the Buddha being the main and perfect master. The festivals we celebrate are those related to Gautam Buddha, Guru Padmasambhava and other Buddhist deities. In such circumstances, it is obvious for me to claim to be a Buddhist. But actually, I'm not - I realise this ignored truth whenever I wake my snoring brain up.

I do tell lies. Since telling a lie is an easy way to escape (sometimes the last resort), I am also one among the escapees. Escapes may be from others and, many times, from myself. Apparently telling a lie to deceive someone into believing something that is not true is what I have referred to as 'escape from others'. Whether it's a family member or a friend or a client visiting my workplace, I have escaped their possible disturbance more than once. One of my weak features is that I can hardly say 'NO' to someone's request or offer, whether it's from the closest friend or a newly acquainted person. And it is quite sure that one gets disappointed while I satisfy the others. In such situation, I must use the tiny, creative part of my mind and create a relevant and credible excuse to escape his/her complaints that my make others incredulous towards me. This helps me practise escaping unwanted troubles. And a good example of 'escape from myself' would be my own appearance among others. I am less expressive. So, obviously I speak less. Many times, I wish to speak out what I feel and want, but my shy nature and unnecessarily conscious brain stop me from being myself. I know myself to some extent. I know what I am pretending to be is not actually what I am. But still I lie to myself and hide the real 'me'. My friends praise me a lot for those qualities which I feel I don't have in as appreciable degree as they believe I have. I, then, realise how pretentious I have been before my friends and all those who like me.

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